Grace is a concept I continually struggle to grasp, so this post will be less formed than usual, and more of a string of musings and quotes. There’s not much else to say beyond grace is “complete and utter.” I’m kind of in confused awe and I don’t know what else to say about it. I want to argue, “but what if I…?” and “but what about…?” or “surely not…”
Recently, I found myself in the middle of an intense conversation with my counselor, dissecting the way my experiences have shaped my view of God:
In another conversation, my counselor asked where God was in the picture of me struggling. I said I couldn’t really picture God in a situation of me being weak and messing up–why would God be around that? My counselor reminded me of Psalm 139, which clearly depicts God being “intimately acquainted with all of [our] ways,” hemming us in “behind and before,” and being present whether we “ascend to heaven” or “make [our] bed in Sheol.” (I wrote more about this Psalm in this post: The Life-Encompassing Psalm).
I happened upon a Nichole Nordeman CD a few weeks ago: her album “Brave.” I have listened to it over and over a ridiculous amount of times… so you are going to see certain songs pop up in my posts the next few weeks. For now, here’s a small, quiet song to wrap up my musings for now: “Hold On (Love Will Find You).” I hope it will serve as a reminder to you (and to me) that God is present in your every moment, and his presence is always one of grace.